I actually find the title to this post a little narcissistic and, I thought to myself, why not push on anyway? Indeed, why, not?
Blogging brought me a release of sorts. Prior to blogging I maintained a series of journals for jotting down itinerant thoughts. Academic papers brought a depth of thinking and analysis of a straitjacket kind...there were rules of engagement in academic settings, you see.
Blogging, on the other hand, had no rules. It was a blank canvas. For younger blogging contemporaries taking to blogging must have been like a duck taking to water. It was almost intuitive and seamless.
For people of my vintage, with world views tempered by bitter experiences past and forged by fear, the decision to blog was a ponderous and difficult mental journey.
Did I have anything worthwhile to say? Do I use blogging as a form of catharthic release from any sense of responsibility without any regard for my words and utterances? It did seem, from a third party perspective of the stuff and nonsense that was being put out in cyberspace, that the gap between responsibility and thoughtful, contemplative writing and pure venomous drivel was, in fact, a huge chasm. There was no consistency of quality whatsoever.
I finally found my natural "voice".
The blog posts that preceded this is, in many ways, the "voice" that I feel comfortable with.
Writing and thinking per se gives me much pleasure. The dopamine effect of putting together a properly expressed prose is addictive.
That is why my choice of vocation involves words, thought and analyses. It is a great treat to be paid for doing what I enjoy. It is an even greater pleasure when the feedback from paying customers and clientele is that they profited from my words, thought and analyses.
There it is. By randomly jotting down my thoughts in this blog post I have answered to myself why I have been parsimonious in blog posts in recent years.
As it turns out I have been busy writing and thinking and analysing other stuff...ones that people actually are requesting for me to do.
And, the pleasure is doubled if the wordcrafting is done while downing a good brew.